Today was a sad day for one of my dearest friend's in the world. This morning, my sweet friend Brenda lost her Mom. Earlier this summer, my other dear friend Alison, lost her Mom. Obviously, it makes me think about my Mom. I am lucky to still have her in my life and wish we were closer.
Our relationship has been strained for several years now. We used to talk and spend time together. I used to look forward to sharing hopes and dreams, sadness and frustration; the full range of emotion that daughters and mothers usually share. But we came to an impasse and have never been the same. I truly don't think we ever will be. That thought makes me very sad and today has reminded me that both Alison and Brenda would say, please don't waste another day, let it go and forget. Good advice . . . I need to figure out some way to start a new relationship with my Mom. The past is gone, but the future could present a new beginning. I know that if there is going to be a new start, I am going to have to initiate it, nurture it and make sure it continues. It is all on me . . . perhaps that has been part of the problem all along. But she is worth it and so am I.
God Bless Brenda and Alison! I know their Moms are smiling down now. I love you both very much!
Be nTouch
I completely understand. Parental relationships are hard. But, in the long run it is worth it.
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