Day 152 - Finally getting caught up . . . who am I kidding?

When I was in my 20's, all I had to do on Saturday mornings was wake up. It didn't matter what time. I would make my coffee, piddle around my apartment, make a list of things I needed to do (always short . . . clean my spotless, not cluttered, tiny space I called home) and relax. Yes, relax. I used to know how to just do nothing once upon a time. When did that skill set evaporate? Was it in my 30's, when I got married, had children, adopted animals? I'm not entirely sure, I just know it is gone. My hope is that I will realize, just like Dorothy did, that it is still somewhere within, I just have to find it, remember how, focus on what it used to be like. Clearly, today isn't The Day!

Don't misunderstand. I have no serious regrets. My life is largely how I would have chosen it (minus losing my husband of course). But I long to get caught up, to have NO more lingering items that get bumped further down the list, that is already so long that I need a new notebook. That would be a dream come true. That is what I would wish for if I had a Genie appear this very moment: "Finish ALL outstanding projects, cross off every item on The List!" Then, it would be up to me to not let myself fall behind . . . that, of course, is the problem . . . ME! Oh well, there you have it; somehow owning it doesn't make me feel much better.

Now that I am approaching the BIG 50, I would like to think I could, at the very least, create a system to help me manage being behind. So, nTouch fans (yes, there are a couple of you out there) I promise to figure something realistic out, sometime in the next 213 days. Starting today . . .

Just love this picture of the Lonely Tree
No clutter there . . .

Be nTouch