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Monday, November 29, 2010

Day 98 - Winter is coming



It's time for pansies! One more day until December . . . UNBELIEVABLE!!! Where did this year go? Pansies, then Christmas and New Year's, then 2011 . . . 2 0 1 1? That looks and sounds like a science-fiction novel. I hope and certainly pray, that 2011 is more peaceful than 2010 has been. The word tumultuous doesn't come close to describing 2010.

One good thing that came out of 2010 was this BLOG. I have promised myself I will get back into this process right after New Year's. I promise to be more diligent and entertaining. I guess I just haven't felt very effervescent lately! No problem, I'll get pointed in the right direction soon!

For now . . . Be nTouch!

Friday, November 26, 2010

Day 95 - Thanksgiving Recap

What a wonderful day we had yesterday at my sister's condo. Everyone behaved, the food was tasty and there was never a dull moment. This get-together for Thanksgivibg at my sister's house was a very big deal to her. She worked awfully hard to make everything perfect. It was a huge success and no one would have known this was her first Thanksgiving. She sure acted like she knew what she was doing. I'm very proud of her!

Be nTouch

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Day 94 - Happy Thanksgiving!

May your home be filled with warmth, joy and love today . . . Think of ALL you have to be thankful for!

Be nTouch

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Day 92 - Paying attention? Does that matter when it comes to Accidents?

Today I did something I have, thankfully, never done befor . . . I accidentally "hit" a young woman in the local grocery store parking lot. It was poring ran an dark and I turned left into the lot and bumped into this lady with my side mirror. Thankfully, the mirror is designed to move in towardbthe door when bumped into. This movement most likely helped prevent any real damage to her arm. That's not to say that it didn't scare her and probably hurt. I jumped out of the car and helped her walk to the shelter of a nearby sub sandwich shop. The restaurant called the police and paramedics. They checked her out and we filed a report. I must say that I have been a wreck ever since. I am so very grateful that I didn't cause her any serious harm. I just hate that it happened. What scares me the most is that I never saw her. It was raining but she was in my blindspot and never in view. I'm a careful driver but accidents do happen. I doubt that makes her feel any better tonight. I still feel terrible. I pray she is okay and completely recovers and I pray that I can let go of this by tomorrow! Ugh!!!

Be nTouch

Monday, November 22, 2010

Day 91 - Monday after the last big game at Furman . . .

I've really gotten behind this time. Perhaps after Thanksgiving I'll have more time to focus on my daily routine here. This is all for now. I'll try to write in the morning and post a photo or two.

Be nTouch!

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Day 87 - Teenagers

OMG . . . I love my boy, my teenager, but at times I think, where did he come from or what did I do to him to create this behavior? He is mad a lot of the time, usually at me. He cuts corners and thinks it is okay. He is growing up but in a completely different place than I thought he would be. He is struggling and I can't help him. And he won't let me try. It makes me sad.

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Day 86 - Invisible Children . . .

Have you ever heard of this movement? I certainly hadn't before tonight. My youngest came home talking about adopting a child from Uganda. He didn't mean that dollar a day adoption. He meant go get them, bring them home, buy them clothes, feed them, send them to college . . . Okay he didn't think about college but you get the point. He was so moved by a documentary that he saw in History today that we had to get online to look at the website. He decided to give any Christmas money that he gets to this group to save these children. We bought DVDs to give each member of our family, from him for Christmas. It was truly breathtaking to watch. No more self absorption. (Im sure it will return, just not tonight) He was relatively obsessed and he sold me too. If you have a minute, Google Invisible Children and check out this group of young people trying to save thousands of children. It is amazing.

Be nTouch

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Day 85 - Countdown to Thanksgiving 2010

This year will be a very special Thanksgiving. My sister Allison will be hosting her first family gathering for Thanksgiving. She is so excited and so am I. I'll help with the cooking and decorating but I really want this to be her show. This will be a Thanksgiving to remember!

Be nTouch

Monday, November 15, 2010

Day 84 - Something Truly Wonderful Just Happened . . .

Just when you think you are 100% right about something, ready to stake your reputation, or something equally as substantial, you find out you are WRONG. Dead wrong! WOW. Tonight, I received an email from someone that made this little hypothetical example come to life. It's a long, rather tired story. Just suffice to say that I had all but given up on something and somebody. It has something to do with Senior Day at Furman this weekend. I was 100% convinced that I would be left out of the entire ceremony with Max. I have been sad and worried whenever it crossed my mind for as long as I could remember. But tonight, the one person who I have blamed for so many things, the person who I'm sure doesn't like me or my presence . . . That same person who occasionally ignores me as if I truly don't exist, that person considered me and Wyatt and has us scheduled to participate on the field, with Max on Saturday. WOW again. I truly never gave him enough credit! Shame on me! Valuable lesson: "don't be so certain you are right, that you miss out on the wonder of the world that is leftover as the truth is revealed."

Thank you to God for his patience in me and my shallow pettiness. And most especially for His gift of Grace.

Be nTouch

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Day 83 - Playing Catch Up!

Why is it that I am always so far behind? I know, I know . . . There are several perfectly logical excuses/reasons that I could use . . . Let's see, I just can't say NO, or, I am terrible at time-management, or perhaps, I try to cram too many tasks into too little time, over and over again . . . Well, whatever the reason or excuse, I am still WAY behind!

Take this BLOG as a perfect example. It isn't that I don't have anything to say. It isn't that I don't have time, (time is relative - my day gets away from me for all or some of the reasons I have already cited and then there is NO time left until the end of the day when I'm exhausted) It isn't that I don't have the same desire as when I started this project.
Ugh . . . Never mind!

All I can promise is to try to do better tomorrow. Today is over but tomorrow I start all over. Yep, I'll do better tomorrow!

Be nTouch :)

Tuesday, November 09, 2010

Day 78 - Open Mind

Wouldn't you agree that being "open minded" is critical to most of our success? You must be able to listen intently (nTently) and empathize. I'm constantly reminding my son to consider what I may feel like, or one of his friends. Tough to do when "self" is the most important variable in your day.

It's not just about listening. It is truly about keeping all your options open, staying fresh and nTouch with everything around you, open to new ideas, feelings, etc. It takes dedication and self confidence when it comes to being open minded. Definitely worth striving for.

Be nTouch

Monday, November 08, 2010

Day 77 - FEAR

Fear? What are you afraid of . . . I have friends that are afraid of everything. Fear can be healthy when used with good judgement. However, fear that cripples should not blend in for any reason. No matter what scares you in life, keep your chin up, be honest, have joy and never let whatever it is scare you into doing something or not doing something you may regret.

Be nTouch

Sunday, November 07, 2010

Day 76 - Watching the bus drive away . . .

I watched one of my favorite shows tonight. One of the main character's, a strong matriarch of the family, was talking about her children growing up. She described a scene where she put one of her sons on the school bus, only to watch him ride away, face pressed against the window waving. She said she felt like running after the bus, anything to shrink the space that their growing up encouraged. I'm dealing with my own bus and growing gap. It seems as though every day pulls us farther apart. It isn't that I mind being alone. I just ache sometimes from missing that little boy who needed and wanted me so. Everyone always said we were so close, that our relationship was remarkable. We were and it was . . . Sadly, since he entered the 6th grade, I have become the one person that bugs him dearly; the one person that doesn't understand him; the one person that he can safely say anything mean to without fear, because he knows, even if it is only subliminally, that my love for him is absolutely unconditional. I pray we find each other soon. It is very strange and lonely to not be with him. I do miss him!

Be nTouch

Saturday, November 06, 2010

Day 75 - Seventy five days and counting . . .

I can't believe it has been 75 days since I started this journey. I have changed directions several times already and will most likely continue to travel down unexpected pathes and ask off-the-wall questions. Here goes:

Why is it that the older you get the harder it is to lose weight or stay in shape? I used to be able to eat what I wanted and stay thin. Now, at least for the last year, I'm getting bigger and bigger and feeling bloated till I'm about to bust. Nice visual I'm sure . . .
What I wouldn't give for a thin day. I'm soft and smooshy, and my arms are starting to sag. OMG, what am I to do?

Please send advice. I sure could use it!

To be continued but Be nTouch anyway . . .

Friday, November 05, 2010

Day 74 - On the road again

We have traveled to Greenvile for the second to the last home game of our season. It feels sad to think that we won't be making this trip, several weekends next fall. We made it in record time tonight, which is pretty boring to most folks. Who cares, right? But after four years, making great time means something!

Looking forward to a cold, but great ballgame tomorrow. Go Paladins!

Be nTouch

Thursday, November 04, 2010

Day 73 - Incompetence

The older I get, the less tolerance I have for incompetence. I'm not talking about random mistakes. Everyone makes mistakes. I'm talking about not being competent with tasks you are responsible for, and then making excuses about what went wrong. I guess this gripe goes along with not being accountable, which would run a close second. Do your job with honesty and integrity and try as hard as you can to get it right, or find a new job . . . Simple, right?

Be nTouch

Wednesday, November 03, 2010

Day 72 - Happiness is . . .

Happiness is watching my kids do anything, hugs from my kids, having a clean house, paying all the bills and having something left over, spending time with good friends, a martini with my Dad, any day at the beach, reading a great book, making a difference, peace and quiet, building something, cooking a wonderful meal, seeing Gods grace first-hand, babies, puppies & kittens, sleeping in, helping someone less fortunate, chocolate, watching any movie with Robert Redford or Wll Smith, feeling caught up, communion with my family . . .

To be continued . . .

Be nTouch

Tuesday, November 02, 2010

Day 71 - Compassion and Humility

Today is Election Day. For weeks, all I could think about was "I can't wait until these negative TV and radio ads are finally over." It isn't that I don't care about the VOTE . . . I care a lot about the VOTE and our political culture. But today, I witnessed something far more important than negative political ads.

I was at our local grocery store with my son. We were checked out and rolling past other baskets for the sliding exit doors. It was then that I noticed a women vomiting in a plastic grocery bag. Actually, and forgive me for being gross, she was spitting up, almost a dry heave, not really vomiting. I looked at her as we rolled the cart past her. She didn't notice us, she was busy trying to spit in the bag and I assume, not on the floor or anywhere else. I got out the door and stopped. I looked at Wyatt and said, "should we help her?" He hadn't noticed her, and even though he has always followed my lead when it came to rescuing puppies or helping someone in obvious need, he has also become somewhat less enthusiastic about getting involved since he hit adolescence. He asked me who I was talking about. I said we had just walked by someone who looked to be throwing up. "Do you think she needs help?" I asked again. He nodded yes and shrugged his shoulders at the same time. I turned around and walked back in. This woman, standing now, was reaching for another bag and a towelette from a wall dispenser. I asked her if she needed help. She said no, she was waiting on her sister. I asked if she was sure and put my hand on her shoulder. It was then that she looked up at me and our eyes met for the briefest time . . . "I'm okay, it's just my chemo, I'm okay." Her face was wet from tears and saliva. She was wiping her mouth and cheeks with a moistened antibacterial towelette. I asked if I could get her a wet paper towel, my hand still on her shoulder. She simply said no, she was okay, but "thank you." She walked back to the bench, where I had first seen her, and began to gag and throw up again.

As we walked outside, I was so moved by this event that I could hardly focus on getting the groceries in the car. Wyatt and I talked about it a little bit as we left the parking lot and drove home. We were healthy, comfortable, far removed from the poison running through that random woman's veins. But she isn't really random - She is someones sister, daughter, possibly mother and surely friend. She was hurting, struggling, weeping and vomiting uncontrollably, in a public place. No shame, total humility . . . I couldn't stop thinking about her. The strength and courage to put one foot in front of the other, to fight for your life. I can still see her face and I'm sure as I close my eyes tonight, I will continue to play the scene over in my head. 


What would you have done? There is no right or wrong answer. But it is an interesting question. I got nVolved before I stopped to consider whether I should or shouldn't. I must admit I was a little uncomfortable when I approached her. But I'm glad I did. I was trying to help her, but now I realize that this sweet lady gave me a lot more than I gave her. I hope I continue to see her face and think about her. I don't want to forget her. And I especially want to pray for her.

Be nTouch


Beauty revealed ~ May God Bless Her and ALL of us . . .